When I was a senior in high-school I won a trip to LA for a film I made.
The enormity of it didn’t really sink in at the time…
But I guess, in a way, I’ve really been working my way up to film for a while. I helped run the announcements at my high-school, made a few short films, acted in a few high-school productions. It’s not incoherent to think, as one of my collegiate advisors suggested recently, “Film is really an extension of your interests.”
So it is. And between the film I’m making (“Me & My Shadow”), the other one my directing partner and I have in mind, and the one I’d like to direct my senior year… that’s a decent game plan.
Which begs the question – is film becoming my thing? And is directing, the idea I sidelined in favor of writing, rearing its creative head? To quote Martin Landau – “This is a funny thing.”
There’s a lot of discussion that goes into the idea of the career – doing vs. thinking, studying vs. acting, and just what innovation means in our current cultural milieu. And more-so than most folks, I’m heartened by the curious blend of academia and creative content I’ve begun to carve out for myself. And ultimately, either way, the best I can hope for is a career where I’m allowed to invest in stories. In people. To tinker in the machinery of life.
There is… a magic to talking about stories. To planning camera angles or referencing shots. To drafting storyboards and staying up late in the youthful chaos of creation. Much like Lester Bangs in Almost Famous I’m caught up in the act of art, the literal process of creation that swirls around and increasingly subsumes me. I am, as I wrote in a tiny notebook some five years ago, the conduit.
In the meantime, I dream of a world where I can do everything. And work towards a world where distinctions dissolve.